Never Know the Preciousness of Something until It Is Lost -- So Cherish It

This one is for you, Jack.

Though summer is here, I can’t help but feeling a little sadness spreading through me. First reason is probably of the heartbreaking Chinese music I’m listening to. Second reason is that school is over, and there’s one extremely important people is just walking out of my life.

My best guy friend, Jack, is leaving for a military school next year. In retrospection, he is the friend who made me laugh the most and bought me the most amounts of cookies, the only person who ever asked for homework to copy from and pleaded me to do his lab report, the one who made fun of me but then quickly comforted me when I fell. He is patient. He is chubby. He is thoughtful. He is careless. He is funny. He is emotionless. He is understanding. He is arrogant. He is confident. He is just… unique. He is my rough blanket, my dangerous harbor. Strangely, there is only pure friendship between us, and honestly, it is extremely hard to have a guy friend who makes himself so easy and comfortable to be approached. Sometimes, my friends believe love sparks are being created, but, from my angle, I have no feelings for him other than the appreciation and honor for him for our friendship. I’m a little shy. When my friends talk to a guy so easily and directly, I would just stand far away awkwardly smiling. From his angle, I have no clue who he likes or if he does like me. And I am very grateful for that. For making our companionship so simple and easy. Now, he is leaving, after only one year of us knowing each other. I feel so stupid for just realizing how important he is to me. I guess they are right, “You never know how precious something is until you lost it.” I hate it that I have to face my loss of him while knowing and regretting that I could have but haven’t done more for him. Though one year seemed like a very short time, he has already comfortably settled a position in my heart, where he will be, though he leaves.

I know you won’t ever see this, but Jack, I am so sorry that I never got a chance to say goodbye to you properly. And I know I won’t able to see you in a really long time. Just remember to influence more people with your carefree and delighted spirit. I genuinely thank you for being an amazing friend and making my year so special. Good luck. 

Summer!

     Time passed so quickly. I can’t believe my once-in-a-lifetime Grade 8 is over. I just finished my last final exam this morning, which is French. Now I can’t believe I don’t need to study anymore. I still can’t exit my “study mode” quiet yet. I guess it’s gonna take a while for me to adjust to my new, lazy, and free summer life. It’s kind of annoying that I got sick as soon as school ended. Actually, a little before that. Yesterday, during my Math exam, my head was killing me. I felt like I was going to explode. My breaths burnt my nostrils as I exhaled. You know, it feels wrong to even breathe while someone’s sick. While I am writing this blog now, I can’t stop myself from forcing air to come through my plugged nose. I guess the first week of summer, which is the best time, would be used to stay home and deal with pathogens in my body. (Haha, sorry, I’m still thinking through my scientific brain from the Science exam last Friday.) Anyways, I’m really happy school ended, though a little sacrifice has to be made. It’s totally understandable that my body needs to release the stress it got over the past two weeks. I’m so excited for summer! I’m going shopping next Friday with my mom at Metrotown in Burnaby, before going to church. I haven’t been to Metrotown in such a long time that I don’t even remember. Then, I’m going to PNE Playland, Water Park, and horseback riding at least once. Plus I’m ready to grow ten centimeters over the summer. I’m a little excited for summer school for Math 10 (not -.-‘). I’m going to this really expensive program in the summer. It’s for learning architecture stuff. I kind of want to become an architect when I grow up. I might go to Yellowstone National Park in the states in August. I’m going to tell my crush that I like him. Since he’s leaving for Saint George’s next year, there’s no point in hiding anymore (except that I will see him on a Christian Camp I’m going to). Oh yes, as I said, I’m going to a Christian Camp for 5 days or so at the beginning of August. And, I might have to get a French tutor, because I’m probably almost failing my French course. Well, I guess my summer is all planned out, full of courses I either hate or love; so it’s really not that bad.
     By the way, I’m starting to listen to Chinese songs! Vision (魏晨) is a really good singer. Some of his songs are really poetic and gives an ancient feeling, while some are so soft and sometimes sad, and the rest are so swaggy and energetic. He is the best Chinese singer I know, though I don’t really know any. He really can sing, I think, though I don’t really know how to judge an artist’s actual singing ability and skills. But Vision’s voice comforts me, and it’s smooth and convincing. I honestly have no idea how to describe music and stuff, but there’s just a strange but familiar feeling about his songs. Another exciting thing is I’m back to movies! I kind of stopped watching movies because of exams. Now I’m free again, movies here I come!

     I can totally imagine myself going back to school, complaining why summer passed so quickly. So this summer, I should just relax and enjoy time while it is not too late. Time always passes before we’re ready. So why not be ready and let life pass with it happily?